Sometimes trials come our way that just don't seem to be fair. We fight in our mind, saying why is this happening to me, and we begian to dwell in our own pity. This was my frame of mind a few days back. Something had come my way that did not seem fair, and I just did not want to deal with it any longer. I felt like this burden was mine to bear, however I could not bring myself to have the right frame of mind about it. As I sat in church on Sunday and listened to the word go forth, none of it seemed to hit home for me. I came home, and still began to wallow in self pitty. I really didn't want to feel the way I was feeling, but I didn't know how I could change it. My desire is to except the things that come my way. I want to have a good heart, and not compalin about the things that are required of me. I want to be an example to the ones I am around, but I at that moment I really felt I could not be that.
As I laid in my room and cried, I began to ask God for guidance. I needed words of wisdom and comfort. I picked up the phone and called a dear friend and sister that the Lord had put in my mind. She didn't answer the phone, and I began to feel a little more discouraged. But within a few minutes she called me back. I began to unload on her the burdens of my heart. The words she spoke really were just what I needed to hear. I knew what was right, and I knew what I needed to do, but hearing her say it with love and compassion really seemed to touch my heart. I am so thankful for the spirit and how he can comfort us through our brotheren. And through our trials we can build stronger friendships.
I know there will be more rough days ahead, but through prayer and being in subjection to God, I know I can do it.....one day at a time.