I enjoy people watching. I find it fascinating just to sit back and watch people pass by, observe how they are dressed, how they deal with there children, and listen to the conversations you overhear as they are talking on there cell phones. I sometimes begin to form opinions about what there life may be like and what kind of person they are. I think at times I may even judge them based on what I see. This leads me to think that maybe other people do the same thing with me and the way I portray myself. I often wonder what do people see when they look at me? How do they view me?
I would like to think that every ones opinion and first impression of me would be a good one, however I am not so sure that is always the case. I remember one time Sean and I were driving home from the coast and Sean was falling asleep and we stopped at this Restaurant/Bar. The restaurant part wasn't open so I went into the bar to see if I could get Sean a drink. (Pepsi) Anyway I walk into the bar and ask if the restaurant part is open, and the lady says to me "Why do you have a bunch of little kids that are hungry, and need to get something to eat?" Now mind you, I did have a few little kids at the time, however they were not hungry, and they did not go into the bar with me. I then wondered what about me would make her think I was a mom with a bunch of kids? Did I look like a lady who had a bunch of kids? Kids that were hungry nonetheless? Maybe I took here comment a little too offensive. I guess it could have been worse, she could have thought I was there for a beer...right?
Sometimes it would be nice to get into the mind of another human being and see how they view you. I of course would like to pick a human being who had a high opinion of me. He He He. But maybe even seeing myself through a person who did not would help me to see my flaws. I would like to know what flaws they see and how to improve on those things. I have been pondering on outward appearance as well as inward. How does the world see me? Do I appear to be Godly? Do I look like a person who has good morals, who knows how to instruct her children? How do the brethren see me? Do they view me as the Sister who wants to live the faith, and does a good job at it? But most importantly how does God see me? I want to be pleasing to the Lord, and to be aware of my appearance before him. I want him to see me as pleasing and good to look upon. I want his impression of me to be a good and lasting one. As much as I hope my appearance to the world and the brethren is a good one, I find that my appearance to the Lord is the one that matters the most.